Hettienne Ma

Archive for January, 2011|Monthly archive page

The Silent Heart Diksha

In Diksha, divine feminine, Messages on January 21, 2011 at 9:45 am

You have direct access to the Divine within.  This is your birthright. All minds are One and sharing in the presence of a mind that has opened up, you are strengthened in your own journey to Awakening.

Various diksha are given by the Masters and Beings of Light.  These beings are experienced as Consciousnesses rather than individuals with personalities.  Each one of these Consciousnesses support you through the various stages of your unfoldment.

Diksha is the transference of spiritual energy.  This usually takes place from a teacher/guru in a specific tradition to an initiate.  There are various forms of Diksha and different  ways in which Diksha can be received, ie through touch, sight, word or mantra, ritual or ceremony.

The word is derived from the Sanskrit root dā (“to give”) plus ki (“to destroy”) or alternately from the verb root dīk (“to consecrate”).

Vishnu Yamala (tantra) says: “The process that bestows divyam jnanam (transcendental, spiritual knowledge) and destroys sin (pāpa), the seed of sin and ignorance, is called diksha by the spiritual persons who have seen the Truth (desikais tattva-kovidaih)

Different traditions and sects treat diksa in various ways. Tantra mentions five types of initiation or diksa: initiation by a ritual or samaya-diksa; sparsa-diksa is an initiation by touch and is done without a ritual; vag-diksa is done by word or mantra; sambhavi-diksa is arising from perception of external appearance of the guru; mano-diksa is when initiation is performed in the mind

The Silent Heart diksha flows from Mother Mary, Guardian of the Sacred Heart and Gatekeeper of the Feminine Christ Energy.

It has the power to release trauma, physical, mental and emotional.  The energies flow directly to the physical heart and heart chakra.  It often brings  many emotional openings to the receiver and a heightened emotional state is experienced for a while.  As part of this opening up, the receiver feels everything more intensely, the numbed down layers are activated and opened up and this may feel chaotic and like emotional turmoil.  But in truth, this is a very deep and profound healing as we are meant to feel.  We have been conditioned in becoming emotionally numb and this leads to a deep state of isolation, loneliness and desperate feelings of being separate from your Source and Divine Self. You need to feel in order to heal.  Being in touch with the Divine Feminine and the Feminine Christ means that you are aware of the mortality of this physical life; that you have empathy with others, tolerance and deep compassion.  The Silent Heart Diksha will enable you to find true acceptance for your own personal self and its archetypal journey into the Self.

The Silent/Healing Heart Diksha will release emotional pain, release anger and resentment and purify the energy system.  It brings deep healing to the physical heart and the physical body as a whole.  It has powerful grounding energies and bring you into your core and into your connection with Mother Earth and your own Spirit.


Sit comfortably and quieten your mind.  Visualise the image of Mother Mary in your mind’s eye. You may want to create a small altar with her image,  incence and fresh flowers. Or you can use the image below.


Call on Her presence.  ‘Oh Divine Mother, please come to me;  bless me with your Presence and reveal yourself’.  You may become aware of a colour, a sensation or a strong rush of emotion.  Allow, allow, allow.  You may want to stay in the awareness of her Grace for a few moments before continueing.

‘Oh Divine Mother, by the power of Love vested in you and in myself, I ask to receive the Silent Heart Diksha.  I am willing to open my heart and mind to receive this healing and I am willing to allow the healing and transformation to take place day by day.  Thank you thank you thank you. Jai Maa! So Be It’

Stay in this energy for 15 to 20 minutes until you feel the energies dissipate.  It is best to lie down for a short while afterwards and also to drink a glass of water.  You may keep a glass of water with you when you follow up with the Silent Heart Meditation.  You can drink this water yourself or give to others in need of healing or peace.



After having received the Diksha into your energy, follow up for the next 7 days daily and continue regularly with this specific meditation to deepen the energies and whenever you feel in need of Her Presence, Grace and Peace.

Sit comfortably and become aware of your breath.  Be aware of your natural rhythm of breathing and do not control or manipulate the breath.  Keep the focus on the breath for a while till you feel grounded and centred.

Set the intent through saying the following words :

By the Grace of the Mother Mary and the Divine Feminine Christ, I have received the Silent Healing Heart Diksha.  I now immerse myself and my consciousness deeply into the Presence and allow myself to receive the complete healing.  Thank you thank you thank you and so be it.

Then focus on surrendering the personal self.  As you turn your attention inwards, focus on the heart chakra and continue to breath normally.  Immerse yourself deeper and deeper, more and more inward, consciously renouncing your senses and your attachment to the personal self and your life and all its activities and objects.  Take it slowly.  Allow the process to take place in its own time.  Keep on focusing on bringing the attention back to the physical heart and renouncing.  You may use the mantra as follows :

Divine Mother

I renounce my self, I renounce my all

I renounce, I renounce all to you.

Or you can create your own mantra or prayer.  The focus here is to surrender, to renounce, to sacrifice and to let go of.  In the beginning, the mind may resist, but with practise this will become easier and more effortless.

Should strong emotions and tears follow, allow these to flow and then bring the focus and awareness back to the heart chakra and return to the process.






Here and Now

In Uncategorized on January 20, 2011 at 8:25 am

Today I walked outside expecting to say ‘good morning’ to the two weaver chicks in my pin oak tree and, the truth be told, just to check on them and make sure that their mother has been doing a good job!  For weeks I have been observing the beautiful journey. It started with the male weaving nest after nest – never daunted in his task by the female’s dissatisfaction with his every attempt at creating the perfect nest for her precious eggs.

Eventually, she was happy with his fifth attempt!  She moved in and soon there were two tiny mouths that had to be fed constantly.  As I listened to their insistent cries, it brought back memories of my own children and their insistent crying during colic and other baby upsets.  These tiny little chicks were literally only beaks : wide open and never, never closed.  And when the mother arrived with food they greeted her with great excitement.  It became almost second nature for me to listen for their hunger cries and then the calls of joy when they were fed.  This all gave me a wonderful sense of Mother Nature and her incredible powers and that all is well in the world. An Utopian view of the world, no doubt!

Then a week ago, I noticed that the entrance to the nest has now two separate entrances; one for each chick.  And then still a few days later I saw the chicks outside the nest sunning their bright green fluff!  My mothering instinct was awakened and I was so happy and felt so peaceful : all of nature is taking care of its own.

Then this morning I looked up into the leaves and there was no nest!  Nothing, not a sign of the nest.  A few twigs and feathers floated in the water below and I realised that the chicks have left and the mother had deconstructed the nest as it no longer served its purpose.

As I caught my breath I witnessed my feelings of loss! A deep pang of ‘oh no they have gone’ fluttered through my throat; probably mirroring my own process of two grown up children who have recently moved out. But then as I ventured down this path of feeling and allowing itself to unfold and show me the gingerbread house within, I witnessed the lovely play of the ego.

The ego has been demonised in the spiritual tradition and in the quest for enlightenment. Enlightenment is an awakening – sometimes it happens suddenly, for no known reason at all, and at other times it happens after a long period of meditation and an immersion into the unseen and invisible.  But seldom does it happen after studying metaphysics or gathering more knowledge of systems and traditions.  Awakening is exactly what the word says : you wake up from a deep sleep.

Knowledge serves to help you understand the construction of the ego and the existence of the illusion, and it will help to thin those divisive belief systems and walls of separation.  And when you have come to understand, intellectually, that you are not only your ego, but that you are Spirit as well, it is time to accept and to step through the door of surrender!

The ego mind is the one that keeps you asleep.  In order for the ego to stay alive it needs to be fed.  It thus needs your energy for itself.  In order to harvest your energy, it desensitizes you to the intensity of the vibrancy of the true world.  The true world therefore stays unseen and, very importantly, unfelt to you. Your ego with its desire-mind, will keep you enthralled with its own agenda of success, goals, achievement, ambition and sensual needs.  However, the more you direct your focus and attention inward through contemplation and meditation, the more your energy becomes firstly purified from the ego attachments and secondly, the more you become sensitized to the world within and the world that you sense behind the visible world.

Awakening is also directly linked to the opening of the heart – through intense feelings and eventually euphoria or deep peace and bliss.  As the energy is gathered within and withdrawn from the personal ego attachment, the heart starts to feel itself in order to heal.  A difficult period of ‘withdrawal symptoms’ and many challenges and temptations to fall back into the world of the needy and demanding ego, will arise.  But it is exactly through these feelings that you will be guided and led down a seemingly dark tunnel towards the Light of Awakening.

A strong ego is necessary for spiritual development and growth.  This is contrary to many guru’s teachings as students are often told that their ‘ego should be broken down’ and that they should surrender to the will of the guru.   Without an ego you will not have a sense of identity, no discernment, no personal power – you will be completely disempowered.  Without an ego you will not be able to wake up from the sleep as you will not be able to identify your ego attachments and archetypes.  You will be perpetually in a state of confusion, without an idea of what to surrender to the divine and what not.  You will be easily manipulated and taken advantage of by others and you will become their source of energy in the ‘energetic food chain’.  It is only those parts of the ego that has become out of balance and that is overdeveloped, that does not serve and which has to be brought into balance.

There  in nowhere that You are not.  You are holy and everything you touch is holy.  The battle is not between good and bad.  The quest is to wake up from the dream!  Will you wake up from the dream if you fear God?  If you believe that you are imprisoned by a negative, harmful ego, what does that imply?  Who created that ego?  The personal, separate you?  Then by implication you are more powerful than God and therefore you should be feared – no doubt.

We live by implication – by the law of the infinite and invisible. You can only become aware of this Invisible Infinite Law of Love, when you go within. Then it is a process of instilling a deep quiet into your mind.  Focusing on the activity that you are doing with great intent.  Regular disciplined meditation.  Immersing yourself in great art, beauty or poetry.  Spending time in nature.  Spending time alone, away from others and the energetic pull of their minds and emotions.  Withdrawing from relationships regularly in order to purify your energy field from attachment and reaction.

If you are on the quest to awakening, then spend time listening to your own inner voice.  Dialogue with your statements that you make on a daily basis.  Look at the implications of what you believe about yourself and about others.  Clear seeing is very important in the journey of waking up.  And everyone can wake up.

Dialogue with the self and regular meditation will give you access to “seeing” clearly all that there is to “see”, it enables accurate and powerful decisions. And clear-seeing clears the way to put action behind what has been decided, eliminating all resistance in it’s way.

You will  learn to “see” in all levels of Light and reveal that which has been previously hidden. Whether one is male or female, these practices will give you an all important connection to your female side and the most exquisite form of deep wisdom – feminine intuition.

You will be able to grasp the  big picture and create a synthesis and deep understanding from many diverse fragments. When not in balance, it is because a determined intellect is standing in the way, although one believes in a lot of cases that true intuition is active. This leads to self aggrandizement, and deluded behavior based on sheer illusion and fantasy. Such is the plight of many souls who mistakingly believe they “get it”. Realistically speaking, many boldly talk the talk as opposed to walk the walk.

This delusion is present in the absence of meditation and inner awareness.  True inner awareness is not possible and accessible through the ego mind.  As pointed out earlier, the ego mind is the one that is running the agenda and the program to syphen off your energies and clear seeing – so it only stands to reason that it will not aid and abet these attempts at undermining its tyranny.

Prolonged and stubborn resistance to seeing things as they really are, leads to behavior bordering on unrealistic idealism. This eventually causes partial if not whole separation from reality. The ensuing result is an extreme issue with authority (everyone else is wrong – but I am O.K.).

Just because we want to wake up and we know that this is possible, does not make it so.  We have to ACCEPT that have the potential to awaken.  By dropping our insecurities about material (tangible) matters, and trusting in what we can’t see – the “still small voice” becomes proof alone that there is something else – something visible to our “higher” or extra-sensory sensitivities.

Without a disciplined mind, cultivated by a strong ego, the quest for awakening  becomes an ungrounded idealistic fantasy of relying on external others’ authority and mercy.

Only you can give yourself the gift of Love, through honouring yourself and your inner voice.  Honour and pay attention to your deepest feelings, that which your Heart speaks so clearly.  Pay attention to what you say to others and to your first response spoken – before the conditioning re-asserts itself.

And remember, awakening does not mean that you become perfect, nor that you will ever be a perfect person.  Even when fully awakened at present all the time, does not make the enlightened one a perfect being.

As long as you are in a human body, you will always be called upon to make choices based on Love!

Life is a sacred garden

In Uncategorized on January 16, 2011 at 8:46 am

The many  gardens of the world, of  literature and poetry,  of painting and  music, of religion and architecture, all    make the point as clear as possible:  The  soul  cannot thrive in the absence of a  garden.  If you don’t  want paradise, you are  not human;
and if you are not human, you don’t have a soul.
–  Thomas Moore, The Re-Enchantment of Everyday Life, 1996, p.      101

We have recently added a nectar bottle to our collection of bird feeders in the garden.  And what joy it brings to me, the observer and to the birds!  It has drawn many new species to our garden which has led to some more delving into the bird books, getting to know and understand more about the mysterious ways of these beautiful creatures.

I have come to learn that the seemingly gentle and nurturing weavers are actually bullies!  They menacingly chase the sparrows away from the seed feeders and they bully the hummingbirds to such an extent that I will have to put up a separate nectar feeder for them.  The angry waider has a harem of five wives, no less.  When it is mating time, he does not allow any other bird near his patch and this often leads to quite vicious attacks with feathers flying and a high pitched screeching for hours on end!

And so when people ask me ‘why does God allow hurtful behaviour?’, it brings my mind back to my garden filled with birds.  Does anyone ever ask why does God allow the weaver to bully the hummingbird, or why does God allow the hawk to catch a beautiful dove in mid-flight right in front of my eyes on my lawn?  No, that question is seldom asked as it is ascribed to Nature, or the nature of things or the natural way of things.  Well, in the same way do people act in accordance with their nature.  Some people are liars by nature; others are driven by their own greed for power or for ownership.  Most often they do not believe that what they are doing is wrong – in some way they can always justify or rationalise their own actions. In their mind and belief system they maybe think that they had no other choice, or that that was the best course of action.  Also that the ‘noble’ goal justifies the means. And most often we find that people act from a place of entitlement.  They believe that because they have been victims or they have suffered at the hands of another, they are entitled to now claim for themselves, despite causing suffering in another.

So, is it that God ‘allows’ bad things to happen or are bad things part of nature and part of the natural cycle of life? Is God then only good and does that mean that  bad things happen outside His/Its ‘jurisdiction’ or is it that God has given man free will and therefore he has a choice at all times whether he acts as good or bad?

There are no simply straightforward answers to any of these questions  However, there is a place deep within yourself where you Know the answer to these questions and you can bring yourself back to this place, over and over again, and look at life and your nature and find the infinite peace based on the direct knowledge of the Self.  Then you may find yourself trying to make your own knowledge and understanding of the answer to these questions legible for others in your own unique way.

The quandary of living in duality is that we are always faced with a dichotomy.  A part of us know and realises that there is only One and that there is no duality, no good and bad.  And a part of us lives and exists in the body in the world of duality.  But we cannot access the Greater Wisdom of the Soul without living in a body!  Therefore one has to be grounded and committed to this physical existence in order to transform the personal understanding into one of absolute peace.

Therefore, keeping in mind the tension of the opposites of the Absolute and the physical existence, let us look at the statements above.

When is something good or bad?  In order to establish that we have to make a judgement.  Your sense of bad or unacceptable may not be the same as mine.  I suppose generally speaking, we will all agree that something is bad when it hurts ourselves or those or that which we are attached to and have strong feelings about.  But often, when you hear the other side of the story, you have great compassion and understanding for the perpetrator. How often have you watched a movie, starting off wanting revenge for the victim and half way through the movie, you swop sides and you start rooting for the bad guy and you hope he/she never gets caught!

Is it not often that the ‘bad’ person are acting in accordance with his or her own nature, driven by their own conditioning and experiences and above all, through their own ignorance that there is a different way of looking at life and at themselves and that there is a greater picture to be known?

Once we have been hurt by another, many feelings follow and one of the strongest ones are anger.  What is the true nature of anger and what is it telling you?  When you spend enough time with your anger and get to know it intimately, you will find that anger masks a stronger and deeper feeling : shame.

What does shame imply? It implies that you believe that  whatever has taken place should not have happened.  It implies that you believe that you have not  acted in accordance with your or others expectations of yourself or that you did not act in accordance with your own nature. And it implies that the other party should not have acted in that manner.

I am not referring to what psychologists call a healthy sense of shame.  Shame is designed to guide you, to keep you safe, to ensure your survival. But in the hands of the conditioned ego, shame can be used as a self-inflicted punishing whip, designed to keep you from liberation. And only too often, is shame used by both religion and teachers and guides of the various spiritual traditions, to keep you spell-bound and disempowered.  The mere mentioning of the word ‘ego’ brings up deep feelings of shame and many spiritual students and seekers, are very confused about what is actually ego and how to overcome it.

To my mind there is no difference between being told by a church or religious leader that you are born in sin or being told by a guru that ‘it is only your ego speaking and therefore it is not valid!’.  Contemplate on the extreme power in the hands of either of these authority figures!  You therefore cannot trust yourself, or your own ideas and thoughts, because it is all ego and therefore ‘bad’ and it separates you from the Self!  Thus you are disempowered and cut off from your own Source and dependant on others!

The process of shaming starts at a young age when your behaviour is not in accordance with the social and tribal laws of of your family and culture.  And this continues throughout your life : you have to fit in or  you will be shamed.  And then finally you are ultimately nailed to the cross, when you follow a spiritual tradition, designed to lead you to liberation, and you are being shamed for the nature of your ego.

The key word here is ‘nature’.  Who created your nature?  You were created in the image of the Creator;  you come from nothing and you return to nothing.  Thus you are from the Essence of the Creator.  How can you then be ashamed for your nature?

From the moment when you enter existence, you assume a body with DNA, genetic imprint and ancestral history.  You are conditioned by the actions and lack thereof, of your parents and those you grow up with.  You are shaped by nature and nurture.  How can any of this be labelled as ‘bad’?  How many of those choices did you consciously make in this body?  Your body is programmed with instinct and natural responses. None of those are your creations – they are all your natural self.  So if you agree that you did not choose any of these consciously, in this body and this mind, then you have to agree that you are a divine creature.  Therefore, everything is as it should be, although the human mind, by its limited nature, cannot comprehend this mystery.  And if you are a divine creature, so is everyone else, and their actions are all from God.  And then you have to accept that just because you cannot understand it, or it does not fit it with your belief system, it does not mean that it should not have been.  This understanding and acceptance is the first step towards forgiveness and unconditional love (prema).

(Yes, ego can be our greatest obstacle to Self-Realisation, but it is also our vehicle to our innermost Self. But this is a complete topic on its own)

Nature is often referred to as Mother Nature, or Prakriti, the Divine Mother or Goddess.  She who contains the Light in her own nature and who is capable of giving a virgin birth when consummated with the masculine formless consciousness.

Embrace yourself, your divinely created ego and allow Great Mother to guide you from within to living your own spectacular sacred Self!  When you act in a way which does not fit in with the idea of who you are, remind yourself of the bullying weaver and hang garlands of compassion around your neck.  Plant a new seed of  forgiveness and water it everyday with wonderful sweet water and wait for the Mystery to unfold in yourself and your life!

%d bloggers like this: