Hettienne Ma

Archive for the ‘Messages’ Category

Living in Duality is an Act of Love

In Diksha, divine feminine, Messages, The Path of Love, The way of the heart on February 28, 2011 at 6:47 am

Living in duality is a wonderful gift that we have given to ourselves and it is not something that need be ‘overcome’ or ‘transcended’.  There are schools of thought that teaches that maya (the illlusion of duality) should be left behind as fast as we can. But in my experience, it is through the immersion of ourselves into the body and its sensory experience, by living our emotions and feelings, applying our mind and ultimately trusting on Higher Wisdom, that we and our experience here becomes transformed into joy.

I can only speak from my own experience and I have learnt that  my intense devotive passion, which at times is my greatest challenge and obstacle, has also proved to be my most powerful ally on this journey.

Life for me started out  with a heightened awareness and sensitivity.  Having been born with clairvoyant abilities, and others all with the prefix of ‘clair’ (meaning clear), life had many layers to it.  As these layers were only clear to me and not to those around me, I was quite happy to have my own experience and to live in my own world.

Until my social interaction widened and I learnt that we should label everything.  All of a sudden my experiences no longer seemed so clear and my paradise seemed to exist only in my own world.  This sense of separation has been my greatest  motivator on my spiritual journey.  At first, I did not realise that this was what I was looking for – albeit sometimes in the weirdest places.

It is actually all very simple.  If we could allow ourselves, and of course, if our social training and conditioning could have been such, as to allow us, to have simple trust and faith : both in the Divine in whatever form or non-form and in OURSELVES.  The key is to know that I Am God That I Am.  And that this is not reserved exclusively for the saints and holy persons and neither does this mean that you know it all, or that you have full access to the Divine Mind and can know all the Mysteries.

But it does mean that you are not separated and has never been.  It does mean that your very soul is of the same fabric as the Divine and that ‘i’ is actually ‘I”.  This also implies that you have been given a treasure of potential power and strength which is mostly never mined in this life.

The separation is created by your own beliefs, by what you believe about the world and about yourself, how you see yourself, by the attachment and investment to your own personal identity.  A Course in Miracles make it so beautifully simple :  there are only two feelings : Fear or Love.  And whichever you choose, will determine your experience, your world and your destiny.

Choosing Love means that you have to choose the improbable, miracles and the ‘other’, with that I mean you will be going against the ways of your culture, your society and probably, your family.  It means that you will have to forgive and forgive, every moment of every day.  You will have to forgive yourself, your society, your culture, your gender, and mainly, you will have to forgive the Divine for putting you here in this ‘divine comedy’ which at times do not seem funny at all!

You may fight and scream and resist, until you Realise that there is no getting off this bus.  You can participate or you can sit this one out, but you have nowhere else to go, so you may as well make the most of it??

Your most powerful tool is to get to know yourself and your own nature.  When you know yourself, you Know God.  How do you get to know yourself?  By doing the great work – unpleasant and painful at times.  It calls for great courage to face your own darkness and shadows.  It calls for inner strength to face your greatest fears.  It calls for deep compassionate love, starting with yourself, for everything!.

Make time every day for contemplation and meditation.  Just start.  Set aside 20 minutes every day and gradually increase this.  Find a cd for a guided meditation until you have the hang of it.  As you withdraw from the senses and the stimulation of the physical world, and you enter that deep silence within, you come closer to knowing God the formless.  Meditation acts like a deep cleanse.  It purifies the mind of its attachments and its never ending desire for stimulation and possession of experiences.  It releases you from your identity and the personality with all its traits and characteristics.  It rewires your nervous system and creates new neural pathways in the brain.  In other words, it is a rebirth.

Set time aside to journal every day.  As you express those unspoken feelings and thoughts, they are seen.  Once they have been acknowledged, they are in your awareness, and the Light of your Spirit will illuminate them through your conscious awareness and they can be burnt away in the fire of acceptance.

Observe yourself.  Distance yourself from your personality.  Remember that your personality is a collage of your conditioning, your experiences, your belief systems, your childhood, your parents, etc etc.  You are not your personality so let go of your identification of it.

You are not your identity.  You are not the roles you are fulfilling at this time in your life.  All of these can change in the blink of an eye and you will still exist.  Life teaches us through change, so be willing to change in every second and every minute, without attachment.

Have many tools in your toolkit.  Use your mind and apply yourself to your own inner world.  As much energy as you spend in doing your job well, or taking care of your family, or creating masterpieces, apply that same passion and energy to your own inner world.  Love creates the form and not the other way around.  That means that you first imagine and believe something to be true before it manifests in your life and in your world. You are the king of your own kingdom : it is your duty to control your own mind.

Extend yourself to others.  It is through extension of the self that we truly learn to know the Self.  Face your fears of rejection, of being judged, of looking like a fool and reach out to others. Live vulnerable.  When we are vulnerable, our hearts are open and we treat others and ourselves with sensitivity.  The ego’s greatest weapon in its arsenal against You, is its ability to desensitize you.  It has the power and ability to turn you into an automaton, a virtual zombie.  You feel so overwhelmed by your suppressed feelings and fears, that you start to cut off from your inner voice, you close your heart and effectively closes down your sensitivity and compassion and become so focused on fulfilling your own needs, that you become oblivious to everything else.  You do things without questioning them; you accept the norm without pause.

A good example is becoming a vegetarian.  I am confronted about being vegetarian as it makes others feel uncomfortable, as though they are being judged for their own carnivorous eating habits.  But we do not feel the impact of another’s judgement unless that voice echoes in our own inner voice.  Pay attention to this in future.  When someone says something that you absolutely have no attachment to, you just wave it away and never think about it again.  But when they touch a nerve, you become defensive and upset.  I always reiterate with the question ‘have you been to an abattoir?  Can you witness the process of animals reared for slaughter from the day of their birth?  Can you stand to watch them cooped up in the smallest spaces, never seeing the sun or feeling the earth under their feet? and then can you watch them being slaughtered?  Well, I cannot.

Love is a state of being;  it is both dynamic and receptive in order to birth.  Love is not an object or a sentiment or even a feeling.  Love is not good or bad.  Love Is.  It is the very fabric of ourselves and our existence. It exists but it is invisible and living in duality gives us the opportunity to make Love visible and to give it Life.

You are Love and the voice of Love lives within you.  She whispers to you in every moment and guides you in every action.  Whether you pay attention or not, that is your choice and your power.  Ultimately She has all the answers for you and those answers are not buried in spiritual traditions, nor in the authority of others, nor in their lives.  But in your own heart and soul.  Your life may appear small to others and your name may not be written in footlights, but your every action is Love in action.

Whether you express it positively or negatively; whether you experience pain or joy; whether you spread happiness or grief; you are Love in action.  Love does not judge.  Love does not condemn.  Love is unconditional.  In the world of duality, we have been given the illusory power of making something good or bad and of harming or helping another or ourselves.  But ultimately, behind the veil of Maya, none of it is True.  The Truth cannot be named, nor explained or described.  The Truth can only be known by you.  You may Know it as a resonance within, or a sound within.  Either way, what you Know as your Truth, that Is so.  And the more you Know Truth, the deeper you will want to immerse yourself in Truth.  Thus the journey is never at an end.  And it can only be experienced and shared whilst in duality.

Thus we are all at various stages of Knowing Truth and lots of confusion arises because everyone speaks of and teaches from their place of knowing the truth.  But the ultimate Truth can only be known by yourself in your own inner kingdom of Love.


The Journey of Setting yourself Free

In Diksha, divine feminine, Messages, resurrection, The Path of Love, The way of the heart on February 26, 2011 at 1:14 pm


Do you wake up tired?  Do you have days on end when you have no energy?  Are you aware of a feeling of slight depression most of the time?  Do you often have an underlying sense of anxiety?  If you answer yes to any of these questions, your unconscious self (or subconscious) is telling your conscious self (your personality) that you need to access a hidden part of yourself .

The human mind hides aspects of its personality from itself, based on its judgement that this aspect is undesirable and that it needs to defend itself against itself, as it were.

If you can find out what it is that you are hiding from yourself, it is then possible for you to integrate this dark part back into the whole.

As you take your power back from your shadows, you will find that you become energized and that you feel buoyant more often and for longer periods of time. You will find that you feel  happy and fulfilled with life and yourself, just as is.   You will feel ‘charged’ with energy and vitality and you will find yourself saying ‘is life not wonderful?’.  You will be able to manifest in the physical world as your ability to focus will increase naturally.  Your creative expression will be able to flow without any constrictions and you will find that time has no relevance to you.  You will be able to do in 24 hours what used to take you days.

I see the shadows as thoughts, emotions and fears that lurk in our subconscious and which is not obvious or even known to our conscious mind. As we resist these shadows, inner conflict is created.  This state of inner conflict creates inner tension and it takes most of our energy to maintain this state of tension.  This state of conflict and inner tension is brought about by our preference to experience that which we regard as good or pleasant or positive.

The world of duality implies by its very nature polarities.  Through our judgement of good or bad, holy or evil, desirable or undesirable, we sentence ourselves to many lifetimes imprisoned in the world of physicality with its limited vision and understanding.  As we let go of the need to judge experiences as good or bad, but to accept the flow of life into our reality, as it is, we transcend duality.  When you transcend duality you move into the oneness (see the discussion on the Triangle) and you set yourself free.

As we transcend the world of duality, we will achieve unity consciousness.  Unity consciousness is within the individual.  As one becomes a whole, integrated being, you perceive life from a higher vantage point which means that you are able to see more of the picture.

Because we live in the physical world of duality, we have been taught to judge everything as positive or negative.  Once we understand that the duality is an expression of the One and therefore, they are just two sides of the same coin, we can let go of the need to judge in order to protect ourselves.

When we remember that the very nature of Life is Love and that all expressions are thereof of Love, we can reprogram ourselves to trust All That Is.

Sometimes we are more aware of them, but most of the time they remain only shadows.  Through conditioning we have become too fearful to look into those shadows to see what they contain that poses such a threat to our happiness and even survival.

Without being aware of it, most of our energy is spent in suppressing, denying or avoiding these shadows.  It becomes a habitual way of living.  As soon as the conscious mind takes control of the personality, it moves into ‘control mode’ which it considers as a protective and/or defensive mode.

Caught up in these shadows is a lifetime of conditioning and programming.  These suppressed parts of ourselves is stuck energy and this energy can be released through various tools, such as past life regression, inner child work, emotional release work and by applying the Freedom through Love process.

When you access your unexpressed fears and feelings you are taking the first step on the journey of becoming free :  free to be yourself and free to love yourself unconditionally.

You can recognize the need for clearing in your life through the following :

Tiredness upon waking





Mood swings

Being angry

Chronic fatigue

Chronic disease

Pay attention to ANY physical symptoms, as the state of inner tension will manifest as dis-ease in the physical body.

Being involved in a painful or unpleasant relationship


To see what I am talking about, try the following exercise.

Upon waking up after a good night’s sleep, in those first moments of consciousness, see how different you feel.  Become aware of that complete feeling of ease and peacefulness.  Observe how quiet the mind is for that instant.  In that moment before the mind takes over, you are your true Self.  You are completely at peace, without any unconscious fears or defensive patterns expressing themselves.  This is the Real You that lives behind your eyes.  This is the time before you don your masks for yourself and for the world.

This quiet, serene state becomes your natural state more and more as you clear all your shadows.  These shadows form the murky veil of illusion between you and your true state of being.

As you take your power back from your shadows, you will find that you become energized and have a positive frame of mind most of the time, without any effort on your part.     Unconditional love and forgiveness will be your natural expressive self.


Step 1 :  Find out  WHAT exactly it is that you are suppressing and hiding from yourself.

How to go about this

Find a quiet place to be by yourself.  Take a few moments to become contemplative.  A short meditation will enhance your ability to allow the subconscious to flow into your conscious mind.

Set the intent, through prayer or by lighting a candle or by just stating, to allow the hidden wisdom of your subconscious to flow into your mind.  Also state your willingness to accept whatever it is that comes to you and your willingness to hand over to Spirit and to give up the need to hang onto the judgement.

Divide a piece of paper into two columns.  Mark the one column as negative and the other as positive.

Focus on the feelings which prompted you to start the process.

Write these feelings down in the first column marked ‘negative’.

Write down as many words that describe what it is that you are or were feeling, as possible.

The more words you use and the more expressive they are, the closer you will get to the root cause of your discomfort.

When you are satisfied that you have thoroughly expressed your feelings, start on the ‘positive’ column.

For every negative feeling, write down its positive opposite.


NEGATIVE                                                                            POSITIVE

Angry                                                                                       Accepting

Hurt                                                                                           Happy

Bitter                                                                                        Joyous

Hateful                                                                                     Loving

Very Angry                                                                            Understanding

Furious                                                                                     Allowing

I want revenge                                                                       Forgiveness

I want to hurt back                                                               Compassion

Betrayed                                                                                    Supported

Unrespected                                                                             Respected

Unwanted                                                                                  Wanted

Unloved                                                                                      Loved

Rejected                                                                                      Desired

Thrown away                                                                             Cared for

Cast off                                                                                          Nurtured

Unlovable                                                                                    Lovable

Awful                                                                                             Wonderful

Disgusting                                                                                    Beautiful

I hate myself                                                                               I love myself

I pity myself                                                                                I admire myself

I cannot live with myself                                                        I am at peace with myself

Because we experience and perceive Life as the duality, whenever you express the one pole of existence, you immediately attract its opposite.  We contain both the negative and the positive, therefore, if you feel awful, you also can feel wonderful.

When your list is completed, hand it over to Spirit.  Surrender all these feelings, both positive and negative, to God/Goddess/All That Is.  Ask Spirit (God) to remove these feelings from your psyche.  Ritual has great grounding power and the following rituals will assist in bringing the message home to the physical body.

– You can open your hands and raise them to the sky to physically demonstrate your handing over and letting go of these feelings and negative thoughts.

– You can burn the list that you made.

– You can go and have a bath (add a handful of Epsom salt – it assists in the clearing of the energy body) or take a shower.  State the intent that as you immerse yourself in the water, you are washing these feelings and thoughts from you.  Visualise the water running away into Mother Earth, where these negative energies are transmuted back into Light and offer this Healing Light to others in need.

This is the first step in accessing and re-integrating your various separated selves.  In this first stage of the process you identify which feelings you are dealing with.

Your challenge at the end of this first step is  to :  LET GO, LET GOD.

Based on your KNOWING and TRUST  that God is Love, you can allow yourself to surrender the need to hold onto all feelings of judgement.

The Freedom through Love Process has been recorded onto a compact disc.  You can order a copy from http://www.freedomthroughlove.org.

The Silent Heart Diksha

In Diksha, divine feminine, Messages on January 21, 2011 at 9:45 am

You have direct access to the Divine within.  This is your birthright. All minds are One and sharing in the presence of a mind that has opened up, you are strengthened in your own journey to Awakening.

Various diksha are given by the Masters and Beings of Light.  These beings are experienced as Consciousnesses rather than individuals with personalities.  Each one of these Consciousnesses support you through the various stages of your unfoldment.

Diksha is the transference of spiritual energy.  This usually takes place from a teacher/guru in a specific tradition to an initiate.  There are various forms of Diksha and different  ways in which Diksha can be received, ie through touch, sight, word or mantra, ritual or ceremony.

The word is derived from the Sanskrit root dā (“to give”) plus ki (“to destroy”) or alternately from the verb root dīk (“to consecrate”).

Vishnu Yamala (tantra) says: “The process that bestows divyam jnanam (transcendental, spiritual knowledge) and destroys sin (pāpa), the seed of sin and ignorance, is called diksha by the spiritual persons who have seen the Truth (desikais tattva-kovidaih)

Different traditions and sects treat diksa in various ways. Tantra mentions five types of initiation or diksa: initiation by a ritual or samaya-diksa; sparsa-diksa is an initiation by touch and is done without a ritual; vag-diksa is done by word or mantra; sambhavi-diksa is arising from perception of external appearance of the guru; mano-diksa is when initiation is performed in the mind

The Silent Heart diksha flows from Mother Mary, Guardian of the Sacred Heart and Gatekeeper of the Feminine Christ Energy.

It has the power to release trauma, physical, mental and emotional.  The energies flow directly to the physical heart and heart chakra.  It often brings  many emotional openings to the receiver and a heightened emotional state is experienced for a while.  As part of this opening up, the receiver feels everything more intensely, the numbed down layers are activated and opened up and this may feel chaotic and like emotional turmoil.  But in truth, this is a very deep and profound healing as we are meant to feel.  We have been conditioned in becoming emotionally numb and this leads to a deep state of isolation, loneliness and desperate feelings of being separate from your Source and Divine Self. You need to feel in order to heal.  Being in touch with the Divine Feminine and the Feminine Christ means that you are aware of the mortality of this physical life; that you have empathy with others, tolerance and deep compassion.  The Silent Heart Diksha will enable you to find true acceptance for your own personal self and its archetypal journey into the Self.

The Silent/Healing Heart Diksha will release emotional pain, release anger and resentment and purify the energy system.  It brings deep healing to the physical heart and the physical body as a whole.  It has powerful grounding energies and bring you into your core and into your connection with Mother Earth and your own Spirit.


Sit comfortably and quieten your mind.  Visualise the image of Mother Mary in your mind’s eye. You may want to create a small altar with her image,  incence and fresh flowers. Or you can use the image below.


Call on Her presence.  ‘Oh Divine Mother, please come to me;  bless me with your Presence and reveal yourself’.  You may become aware of a colour, a sensation or a strong rush of emotion.  Allow, allow, allow.  You may want to stay in the awareness of her Grace for a few moments before continueing.

‘Oh Divine Mother, by the power of Love vested in you and in myself, I ask to receive the Silent Heart Diksha.  I am willing to open my heart and mind to receive this healing and I am willing to allow the healing and transformation to take place day by day.  Thank you thank you thank you. Jai Maa! So Be It’

Stay in this energy for 15 to 20 minutes until you feel the energies dissipate.  It is best to lie down for a short while afterwards and also to drink a glass of water.  You may keep a glass of water with you when you follow up with the Silent Heart Meditation.  You can drink this water yourself or give to others in need of healing or peace.



After having received the Diksha into your energy, follow up for the next 7 days daily and continue regularly with this specific meditation to deepen the energies and whenever you feel in need of Her Presence, Grace and Peace.

Sit comfortably and become aware of your breath.  Be aware of your natural rhythm of breathing and do not control or manipulate the breath.  Keep the focus on the breath for a while till you feel grounded and centred.

Set the intent through saying the following words :

By the Grace of the Mother Mary and the Divine Feminine Christ, I have received the Silent Healing Heart Diksha.  I now immerse myself and my consciousness deeply into the Presence and allow myself to receive the complete healing.  Thank you thank you thank you and so be it.

Then focus on surrendering the personal self.  As you turn your attention inwards, focus on the heart chakra and continue to breath normally.  Immerse yourself deeper and deeper, more and more inward, consciously renouncing your senses and your attachment to the personal self and your life and all its activities and objects.  Take it slowly.  Allow the process to take place in its own time.  Keep on focusing on bringing the attention back to the physical heart and renouncing.  You may use the mantra as follows :

Divine Mother

I renounce my self, I renounce my all

I renounce, I renounce all to you.

Or you can create your own mantra or prayer.  The focus here is to surrender, to renounce, to sacrifice and to let go of.  In the beginning, the mind may resist, but with practise this will become easier and more effortless.

Should strong emotions and tears follow, allow these to flow and then bring the focus and awareness back to the heart chakra and return to the process.





The Great Mother Speaks

In divine feminine, Messages, The Path of Love, The way of the heart on November 19, 2010 at 8:08 am

The Great Mother Speaks

I, who Am Her, She whom is known by many names. I have always been with you and I always shall be with you. I am known as the Living Body of Light, Kundalini, Shekinah, Shakty, Ma! I vibrate, I move, I resonate. Come to know Me and Know Thyself. Hear my voice and see my Presence – in and through the physical body.

The physical body is your vehicle to Self-Realisation and Unity Consciousness. Unity Consciousness exists in each and every human being, but it needs to be accessed. The most powerful way to access this luminous state of being, is thenatural way – the way of the body and the heart!
Through all ages, the body and its senses have been vilified and demonized. It is present in your history, in your vocabulary, in your art and culture. Have you ever considered the archetypal names, such as Eve (a small step away from evil) and Devi (one consonant away from devil) – a sure way of separating you from your bliss and complete experience as a spiritual human being and limiting you to the hell of an archetypal existence. All pleasure and enjoyable states of experience and being have been condemned as impure and unholy, thus ensuring a lifetime of imprisonment in the cold dark jail cell of a judgemental and puritanical mind.
The soul cannot incarnate without a body. You have to ask yourself why would the soul choose to experience existence through a body, when it is already experiencing consciousness through an energy field? Why would it choose a body with senses with the capability and capacity for incredible joy, pleasure and giving and receiving love and then immediately start to suppress, deny and eradicate this body and its senses? Why would it choose to enter existence and then immediately deny existence?
Existence is here and now – present in the physical. When the self becomes absorbed in the One, there is no longer existence. The body is only present in existence and the Soul has the power to manifest through the body into existence. Why forsake all of this creativity, fecundity and abundance in a quest for purification as dictated by the wasteland of the mind?
Words have power and this power have been abused and is still being abused in the power play of humans. The game is about possession – possession of power over one another; possession of one another’s bodies, freedom, feelings and ultimately possession of another’s soul.
It is easy to play with words and to distort the original meaning, thus leading to confusion. The greatest enemy of the Soul, is the razor sharp self-doubt of the mind. A well-known saying is ‘divide and conquer’ – a divided mind is easy to conquer. You can spend a lifetime lost in trying to understand; trying to unravel the Mystery; trying to fix yourself and making yourself fit or not fit into a man-made model of philosophy, psychology or any of the thousands of belief systems available to the mind.
Or you can choose the way of the heart and the body. Not the heart as specified by the mind, but the True Heart, the one that resonates and vibrates in your body, in your Shakty.
Become aware of the body. Become aware of its senses. Those senses are available to you
Become watchful and observant. Observe your body. Become aware of every movement, every gesture, every receptive sense. Through awareness, the miracles will happen. You will become aware of a greater resonance, a harmony, an inner song in your body. One that lives independently from you, the self created by the analysing mind. As you learn to relax into this awareness, the body will start to relax and the senses will open wider. You will find a great sense of ease and beauty seeping from your body.
Then expand this awareness to your thoughts. Pay attention to everything that goes through your mind. And you will become aware of the watching Self. You will see that these thoughts rise and fall, without any effort from you, without you making these thoughts happen. and you will see how irrelevant most of these thoughts are and how chaotic! As you become aware of these thoughts, you will notice that they become less and less. Through your awareness, you are shifting your presence elsewhere. But that is still part of the mystery. Slowly but surely, peace will start to settle in your mind as the thoughts start to dissipate.
Now you will find that your body and mind are both at peace. They have come to a quiet place; a sacred space created by your sacred awareness.
Now you are ready for the third step : become aware of your emotions and feelings. This will take more concentration and require that more of you come into the present moment. Feelings are very subtle and your mind have been hiding true feelings behind many masks. Now you can uncover these masks through your awareness.
As the masks start to dissolve, you will enter into an even greater peace – you will be able to let go of the control and the resistance as there is nothing for the mind to defend anymore. When you are aware of your true feelings, there is nothing for the mind to hide from you anywhere. And you will become aware of the emptiness within. A vast full emptiness.

And then, when all three these are fused into one, the fourth awareness will take place by itself.
The ultimate awareness of yourself as pure awareness. This awareness is fully awake and in bliss and this bliss is available in the physical body and heart at all times.
See that you have not ‘done’ anything. You did not make anything happen. You merely brought your awareness into existence. You brought existence into being by shining your Light onto it. I Am the Living Organic Light. I am in you, a passive potential force that, when awakened, will release you from the sleep of the dead and into Life, awake and aware!
The keywords are attitude and awareness. If your attitude is one of trust in me, your Great Mother, then you will allow the unfolding of the Organic Light in a carefree and joyful way. You will trust yourself enough to allow yourself to make seeming mistakes whilst at the same time knowing that everything serves. That which appears like a mistake to the mind, has a cardinal role to play in your experience and understanding. You will allow yourself to be present in both the pain and the pleasure – these are two sides of the same coin and there is no line between pain and pleasure. It is only the mind that perceives duality and separation. The body and the heart makes no distinction and does not create separately from the Whole.
I am not separate from the Whole. Although I am speaking to you from my feminine aspect, I am both, He and She, within and without, Shakty and Shiva, inseparable.


%d bloggers like this: